[into the air]
i've always believed my youth was wasted. walking alone from one hell to the other and back again everyday and every afternoon. talking to myself in my head and wondering aloud, why did he leave. why did he leave me alone with her? which is worse, to be aborted or to be alive and unwanted? i, for the record, am pro-choice. if you are anti-choice, well...fuck you.
i was alive only to those who needed someone to abuse. he left me afraid of everyone. she made me afraid of everything. i am the child of selfish, lazy people, respectively. i am the product of fear masquerading as love. i am selfish and lazy. they say, "you can't blame them forever. you have to take responsibility for yourself, you are a grown man." i say i will be 5 years old until i die and they are responsible for it. i say "fuck you" to anyone who doesn't accept that.
i was wrong. my youth wasn't wasted, it was stolen. my life, however, is a waste.